So, I'm glad that you had a nice time in the greater New York/New Jersey area. I'm thinking about using the plane tickets I won at that infernal professional development meeting a few months back to go there sometime this summer. However, I've never been to Boston so I might go there instead. Either way I won't be here and by here I mean work. And need I point out to you that it will be over EIGHT weeks before our next holiday. Are you KIDDING me??? April SUCKS!
Anyway...so yes, yes, yes! I'm glad that you agree that it doesn't make me a wicked person to want to use this young man-child for wild monkey sex purposes, but now I have this OTHER issue. Ok, you know how I hate my body and all? Well, I think that there is something about him being so much younger than me that makes me even MORE self-conscious, ya know? I mean he probably has spent a lot more time looking at less than 25 year old bodies than greater than 35 year old ones. To be honest, I'm REALLY intrigued by the idea that he even wants to sleep with me. Do you have a theory for that? I can assure you that when I was in my mid-20s I had NO DESIRE to sleep with any man in his mid-30s.
Anyway, back to my disgusting body...So, as you know I'm always worried about how gross I must look to somebody when I'm having sex, but I REALLY am preoccupied with it when I consider the possibility of going up to bat (get it? baseball player, going up to bat...) with Steven again. And no, I haven't done it yet. I did see him briefly on Friday and he STILL wants to see me, again. Tonight in fact, but I'm experiencing a little anxiety at the prospect. Hell, maybe he doesn't have any sexual plans for me at all. Maybe he is hoping to witness to me because he knows what a godless whore I am. Wow, that kills the libido...
I'm insane. Help me!
Terps
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Hell, I'm 37, married to a 41 year old, slightly overweight (but certainly lovable) guy, and I am neurotic every time I'm naked, too! I will say this, though. Men just want sex. Surely they'd prefer it with someone they care for, but they don't see the flaws we see. They see our bodies in a much more flattering light (even when I try to assure there's no light at all!). In between my starter husband and my real husband, I learned how to REALLY enjoy sex. I dated a former Marine who pretty much went over every inch and detailed the positives. He seemed so honest and into it! I didn't want to ruin the moment by laughing, so I waited until later to ask if that was all a ploy. He was so exasperated with me! He said that he wished that women would get over their obsession with their bodies. He assured me that men just want to please. I tested that info out on the (very few, of course) men that I slept with after him, and they all seemed to feel the same way! I gained a lot of confidence in between husbands. I think that's a large part of what attracted my current husband (I call him that to keep him on his toes). I imagine that, aside from your fantastic looks, your amazing personality is a huge turn-on for Steven. You're very sarcastic and witty. Who wouldn't want hot monkey sex with you, no matter how old???
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