Dearest Confusia,
I just consulted my calendar to find that today is Tuesday. How can that be? How can it be that I have only worked one day this week? This must be some kind of mistake. Worse yet is that it is only 9:00 in the morning. Oh for the love...
We are giving benchmark tests today and tomorrow. There is that one part of me that thinks, "Ugh...really? We have to sit here in this room for three hours during which time I must do nothing but watch you children hunker in your seats and attempt to take a test?" Then, there is also that part of me that feels like I get a three hour break during which time I don't have to do anything but stare blankly at the students in my classroom. I don't have to try to entertain them, and I certainly don't have to (gasp!) teach them anything. Maybe it's not so bad. At least I was smart enough to bring a book to read. Between that and blogging, I should be able to fill the time. Then, this afternoon, instead of having 90 minute class periods, we only have 45 minutes. Maybe I can handle this.
So, I see that it's cold as nuts up in your neck of the woods. When I left my house at 5:20 this morning, it was 65 degrees outside, but by noon today, it is supposed to be down to 35 degrees. WTF? Oh how I hate the cold weather.
Love ya, Terps
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
Monday, January 26, 2009
Can the Week From Hell Finally End???
Dear Terps,
I'm slowly coming back. Now that everything's out in the open, I feel better able to handle it. I had a long talk with one of my sisters last night, and it helped alot.
Saturday, as you know, was not a fun day for me, either, but I'm okay, and have had very few side effects, and so have actually been quite lucky. I'm back at work today.
Yesterday I spent some time with my new friend, and found myself smiling despite all that's been going on, and that felt so good. I had a really good time, and I needed that so much.
I know there's still a way to go before all of this is resolved, but I'm beginning to feel functional again. That's a good feeling.
Love, Confusia
Dear Confusia,
I'm glad to hear that things are a little more "normal" for you. Also, I'm very glad that Saturday turned out ok. I have nothing much to report regarding my weekend. I just worked and did laundry. It was pretty much same ol' same ol' for me. I have a stack of papers to grade. Don't wanna do it. Cannot believe they actually expect us to work a full week. What? FIVE days? You gotta be kidding!
Love, Terps
I'm slowly coming back. Now that everything's out in the open, I feel better able to handle it. I had a long talk with one of my sisters last night, and it helped alot.
Saturday, as you know, was not a fun day for me, either, but I'm okay, and have had very few side effects, and so have actually been quite lucky. I'm back at work today.
Yesterday I spent some time with my new friend, and found myself smiling despite all that's been going on, and that felt so good. I had a really good time, and I needed that so much.
I know there's still a way to go before all of this is resolved, but I'm beginning to feel functional again. That's a good feeling.
Love, Confusia
Dear Confusia,
I'm glad to hear that things are a little more "normal" for you. Also, I'm very glad that Saturday turned out ok. I have nothing much to report regarding my weekend. I just worked and did laundry. It was pretty much same ol' same ol' for me. I have a stack of papers to grade. Don't wanna do it. Cannot believe they actually expect us to work a full week. What? FIVE days? You gotta be kidding!
Love, Terps
Friday, January 23, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Teaching Through Mime
Dearest Confusia,
Not sure if you could tell from my voice this morning, but I feel like shit. In fact, I am only here today because I felt too crappy to bother writing sub plans. I figured I might as well suck it up and come to school. Plus, who wants to waste a day off sitting at home feeling like this??? As luck would have it, I'm giving a test in two of my classes, so that'll make it a little more bearable. Also, my classes this semester seem calmer than last, so that helps. Here in a few weeks they'll start taking them out to tutor for the almighty TAKS. Unfortunately, that'll be during my sex ed unit, and sadly some of the girls who need tutoring the most are also the girls who need sex ed the most. But I guess since sex ed isn't a TAKS tested thing... I mean, of life long importance, yes, but still.
I hope I continue to feel like death tomorrow. That'll be fun. I get to go to the Warehouse at 4:30 and work until 10. I guess I should consider myself lucky. At least I don't have to work the closing shift, but the reason I'm not working the closing shift is that I have to be back at school on Saturday for our Open House. Since our school is a "by application" school, we have to set apart a Saturday every year where parents and girls can come in and tour the school and get help with their applications and junk like that. So much for this being a four-day week. Maybe I should just start taking copious amounts of flu/cold/allergy medication and float through these next few days. Sounds promising.
How's life in In School Suspension?
Love, Terps
Dear Terps,
Remember when we talked on the phone this morning and I told you I was on my way to work? Why didn't you tell me to turn around, go back home, crawl into bed and pull the covers over my head? I mean, what's the problem?
I got to work, and at first, things seemed to be going pretty well. It wasn't freezing outside, etc. Then, I was standing with two of my co-workers doing morning duty, and we see a girl run up and plow into another girl. she knocked the girl flat on the ground and started punching her. I ran over as she began dragging the knocked down girl by the leg...At that point, I realize there is a mother involved also, yelling, "KICK HER ASS! KICK THAT BITCH'S ASS!" The three of us are trying to get the girls separated, and the mother looks like she's about to go for the girl, so I get in front of her and put up my arm to block her. Psycho gives me a look from hell, and kind of bucks up and says, "DON'T TOUCH ME!" I just gave her a disgusted look. WTF??? Grow up a little, you think??? We got the girls and the mother inside. The principal storms out and tells us to take all of the kids into the gym and hold them there. We do that, then the other two women and I have to go in and talk to the police officer. I hope they arrested that stupid bitch. Seriously. Yes, I have some hard feelings, but the woman made my job a nightmare this morning, and for that, she needs to pay. I'm not sure what happened with all of that, but it was a good time. As you know, shortly thereafter, I got a call from my daughter's Vice Principal who told me that Jr. got busted smoking with some girls behind the gym. She is suspended for three days. This is following the three day suspension from last week. I'm telling you...PUBLIC CANING!!! There is a place for it in our society. I'm convinced of it.
I don't know what's going on lately. I feel like the world is sort of spinning off it's fucking axis to be honest. At least for me it is...What's with all the DRAMA!?!?!?!? I'm thinking about having Jr. smoke up till she pukes tonight. Just thinking about it. Don't know if I'll do it, though. I'm rather leaning towards just taking her to a safe baby site, and dropping her off. Do they take teenagers you think?
Love, Confusia
Dear Confusia,
It's funny you say that about the safe baby site. We were talking about that in my class last semester and one of the girls said she had read about a dad who tried to drop off four kids (one of which was 15 I think) at a local fire department. Turns out they rewrote that law because of it. As sadistic and awful as it sounds, I kind of like the smoke until you puke thing. I mean, if she wants to smoke so fucking badly, maybe that experience will make her give it a second thought the next time she starts to light up. I think I'm a fan of aversion therapy. Once my brother ate an entire pineapple upside down cake in one sitting, and he can't even look at pineapple now without heaving. Might have some merit.
Being as how I have approximately 2% of my voice left today, I am ETERNALLY grateful for my girls being so well-behaved today. (Though I did warn them that I had less personality than I did voice so they should probably take that into consideration.)
Have I mentioned feeling like shit???
Terps
Not sure if you could tell from my voice this morning, but I feel like shit. In fact, I am only here today because I felt too crappy to bother writing sub plans. I figured I might as well suck it up and come to school. Plus, who wants to waste a day off sitting at home feeling like this??? As luck would have it, I'm giving a test in two of my classes, so that'll make it a little more bearable. Also, my classes this semester seem calmer than last, so that helps. Here in a few weeks they'll start taking them out to tutor for the almighty TAKS. Unfortunately, that'll be during my sex ed unit, and sadly some of the girls who need tutoring the most are also the girls who need sex ed the most. But I guess since sex ed isn't a TAKS tested thing... I mean, of life long importance, yes, but still.
I hope I continue to feel like death tomorrow. That'll be fun. I get to go to the Warehouse at 4:30 and work until 10. I guess I should consider myself lucky. At least I don't have to work the closing shift, but the reason I'm not working the closing shift is that I have to be back at school on Saturday for our Open House. Since our school is a "by application" school, we have to set apart a Saturday every year where parents and girls can come in and tour the school and get help with their applications and junk like that. So much for this being a four-day week. Maybe I should just start taking copious amounts of flu/cold/allergy medication and float through these next few days. Sounds promising.
How's life in In School Suspension?
Love, Terps
Dear Terps,
Remember when we talked on the phone this morning and I told you I was on my way to work? Why didn't you tell me to turn around, go back home, crawl into bed and pull the covers over my head? I mean, what's the problem?
I got to work, and at first, things seemed to be going pretty well. It wasn't freezing outside, etc. Then, I was standing with two of my co-workers doing morning duty, and we see a girl run up and plow into another girl. she knocked the girl flat on the ground and started punching her. I ran over as she began dragging the knocked down girl by the leg...At that point, I realize there is a mother involved also, yelling, "KICK HER ASS! KICK THAT BITCH'S ASS!" The three of us are trying to get the girls separated, and the mother looks like she's about to go for the girl, so I get in front of her and put up my arm to block her. Psycho gives me a look from hell, and kind of bucks up and says, "DON'T TOUCH ME!" I just gave her a disgusted look. WTF??? Grow up a little, you think??? We got the girls and the mother inside. The principal storms out and tells us to take all of the kids into the gym and hold them there. We do that, then the other two women and I have to go in and talk to the police officer. I hope they arrested that stupid bitch. Seriously. Yes, I have some hard feelings, but the woman made my job a nightmare this morning, and for that, she needs to pay. I'm not sure what happened with all of that, but it was a good time. As you know, shortly thereafter, I got a call from my daughter's Vice Principal who told me that Jr. got busted smoking with some girls behind the gym. She is suspended for three days. This is following the three day suspension from last week. I'm telling you...PUBLIC CANING!!! There is a place for it in our society. I'm convinced of it.
I don't know what's going on lately. I feel like the world is sort of spinning off it's fucking axis to be honest. At least for me it is...What's with all the DRAMA!?!?!?!? I'm thinking about having Jr. smoke up till she pukes tonight. Just thinking about it. Don't know if I'll do it, though. I'm rather leaning towards just taking her to a safe baby site, and dropping her off. Do they take teenagers you think?
Love, Confusia
Dear Confusia,
It's funny you say that about the safe baby site. We were talking about that in my class last semester and one of the girls said she had read about a dad who tried to drop off four kids (one of which was 15 I think) at a local fire department. Turns out they rewrote that law because of it. As sadistic and awful as it sounds, I kind of like the smoke until you puke thing. I mean, if she wants to smoke so fucking badly, maybe that experience will make her give it a second thought the next time she starts to light up. I think I'm a fan of aversion therapy. Once my brother ate an entire pineapple upside down cake in one sitting, and he can't even look at pineapple now without heaving. Might have some merit.
Being as how I have approximately 2% of my voice left today, I am ETERNALLY grateful for my girls being so well-behaved today. (Though I did warn them that I had less personality than I did voice so they should probably take that into consideration.)
Have I mentioned feeling like shit???
Terps
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Letting You Know
I love you!
Dear Terps,
I know that I have some extremely tough days/weeks/months ahead. I'm not looking forward to them. I can say though, that I know that you love me, and I know you'll be there for me. I have no idea what's coming or what to expect, but please be ready for phone calls full of neuroses...The need to laugh at whatever possible will be of immense importance, and I will be relying on you for that, okay?
Love, Confusia
Dearest Confusia,
I know it would be a flat out lie to tell you I know what you are going through. I can not even begin to imagine. I'm sorry you're going to have to deal with this, and I wish there was something I could do to help you more than just saying I will be here for you every step of the way. I don't have much more to offer than an ear, a shoulder, a flask, but whatever I have that you might need will be yours. I'm hoping I can see you when I go to visit my mom in February. Regardless, call whenever you need anything.
Love, Terps
Dear Terps,
I know that I have some extremely tough days/weeks/months ahead. I'm not looking forward to them. I can say though, that I know that you love me, and I know you'll be there for me. I have no idea what's coming or what to expect, but please be ready for phone calls full of neuroses...The need to laugh at whatever possible will be of immense importance, and I will be relying on you for that, okay?
Love, Confusia
Dearest Confusia,
I know it would be a flat out lie to tell you I know what you are going through. I can not even begin to imagine. I'm sorry you're going to have to deal with this, and I wish there was something I could do to help you more than just saying I will be here for you every step of the way. I don't have much more to offer than an ear, a shoulder, a flask, but whatever I have that you might need will be yours. I'm hoping I can see you when I go to visit my mom in February. Regardless, call whenever you need anything.
Love, Terps
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
The Best Day EVER!!!!
Dear Terps,
I have more joy in my heart today than should be legal. Seriously, as crappy as this past week has been, this is one of the most beautiful days of my life.
NO MORE BUSH!!!!!!!!!!!
Let the congregation join me in praise!!!
Love, Confusia
Dear Confusia,
I wish that I could be excited right now, but sadly, I am so pissed off at a coworker that I am having to use all my energy to keep from hitting her in the face. I hate when people get to me like this, and she ALWAYS gets to me like this because I fucking hate her. That's most unfortunate as she and I are on the same team and there are only two of us in that team. It's swell.
Terps
I have more joy in my heart today than should be legal. Seriously, as crappy as this past week has been, this is one of the most beautiful days of my life.
NO MORE BUSH!!!!!!!!!!!
Let the congregation join me in praise!!!
Love, Confusia
Dear Confusia,
I wish that I could be excited right now, but sadly, I am so pissed off at a coworker that I am having to use all my energy to keep from hitting her in the face. I hate when people get to me like this, and she ALWAYS gets to me like this because I fucking hate her. That's most unfortunate as she and I are on the same team and there are only two of us in that team. It's swell.
Terps
Friday, January 16, 2009
See this little piece of machinery? Please avoid.
Dear Terps,
Above you will see a picture of an I.U.D., also known as a pregnancy enabler. As I mentioned to you earlier this week, mine apparently just...fell out. Disappeared into thin air. Vanished. I don't get this. It looks like a little crossbow that will shoot down any reproductive cells that get in it's way, and that's what it was supposed to do. A sort of "Zygote Invaders" video game plot, if you will. Instead, the damn thing fell out. How did I not notice this? I know the damn thing is tiny, but still, how did I not notice? I went to the doctor again yesterday (a different one) and he was shocked...SHOCKED! He said, "You are the first patient I've ever seen this happen to!" Yes, that's right. I am in that very special .0000000000000001 fucking percent. Aren't you jealous? I called the makers of this device and explained exactly how fourth dimensionally pissed I am about this. They were very sympathetic, offered to replace it free of charge. Yeah, because I want it to happen again, right? The doctor was a little smarter. He suggested, instead, a tubal ligation, which is EXACTLY what I intend to do. As long as co-pay isn't too much. He said since we don't know why this one came out, it would be kind of stupid to put another one in. So, income tax, hopefully only $100, will go this year to making me STERILE once and for all! It cannot happen too soon as far as I'm concerned.
The divorce is definitely on. I plan on filing early next week, and NOTHING will change my mind. I have come to the realization that I'd rather be married to marylin manson than him. He can fuck himself while simultaneously going to hell. That's how I feel.
Love, Confusia
Dearest Confusia,
I'm glad it's Friday too. Yes, the weather here is also cold, but the weekend looks promising.
So, you seem a little annoyed, and rightfully so. Have you contacted your insurance company about the co-pay for the procedure? I think that might be your best option. Let me know as you find out more about it. I actually did some Internet research and found that Mirena elpulsion happens more than you might realize. There were lots of women on message boards discussing it. Some of them were happy, however, because losing it had helped them with weight management. Of course, had they gotten pregnant, I guess there would be some weight gain...
Now, as for the divorce, clearly something more had happened to push you from serious consideration to filing next week. If you feel comfortable please share, if not here, via email.
Lastly, our new number one fan, Frank, is DYING to meet us. He insists that since we both live in Austin and you live only a few miles north (a few when you consider how many miles the Earth's circumference measures) you should come here for a "Meet Your Fan(s)" event. He has also recommended that we road trip it to Atlanta, but as I haven't been able to get you to Austin in over two years, I don't think Atlanta is doable in the near future. Plus, I hear rumor it 12 degrees there, so no thanks. Anyway, for Frank's sake, do you think you could plan a trip to Austin anytime in the near(ish) future?
I'm so glad we have a three day weekend!
Dear Terps,
If Frank feels he has the stomach for it, who am I to deny him the tremendously frightening experience of meeting us. (Frank, please, for your own sake, drink plenty, and put money aside for that retinal repair surgery you're going to need.) I will try to arrange a time soon when I can make it down. I haven't been for quite a while, it's true, and after this week from hell, I feel the need to either get out of town or have a lobotomy. Yes. It's been that good. I know I'm booked through next weekend. After that, I could probably plan something. Mid-February perhaps?? That way, we can plan a Valentine's Day rebellion. Burn Cupid in effigy, picket Hallmark, whatever we need to do.
Well, you are correct in that a few other things happened, but I don't know that I can really do them the justice they deserve. Suffice it to say, they are the final nail in the coffin of my marriage, or perhaps I should say a few more final nails...I just don't give a damn anymore. He has finally agreed and realized that there is no going back, so I can go ahead and file without fear that he will do anything bat shit crazy. That's good at least.
In the meantime, the VP needs my help in the office right now, so have to run. Will talk more later. Love, confusia
Dear Confusia,
Well, the upside is that it seems like you're coming for a visit! Yippee! Frank has no idea what he's in for!!!! (Insert wicked laughter here...) But when scheduling that, PLEASE remember that I will be up there the weekend of Valentine's because of my mom's surgery. Perhaps the weekend following that? Just let me know.
So, I wish I had more information about your divorce situation. I'm curious as to what's happened to cause you to know that he won't go bat shit crazy. Maybe you can call me if you get a chance this weekend.
I'm so glad it's Friday. I just wish it was an hour later. Here's hoping that your weekend is a good one.
Love ya, Terps
Dear Terps,
Could this work day get any longer? I want to do something fun tonight. I want to get drunk and silly. I want to pretend my life is perfect just for a little while. I have got to figure out something to do tonight if I possibly can.
Dear Confusia,
It's almost comical how fucking long this whole week has felt. It's too bad you can't just jump in your car and come down this weekend. I seem to remember an MLK weekend you came down once before. (Uhm, I kind of remember it.) Ah, those were the good old days... (SIGH!)
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